Emmy Hucker: A fan blog post.

Her youtube

I became aware of Emmy when Jordan Peterson tweeted a video she had done about him. His wife thought it was cute, and it was cute. Emmy is cute. All the things on her channel are cute, and I'm getting ahead of myself.

So, I watched her video, her skills at camara work, editing, voice-over, and all the things are at a level I will not reach (because I'm lazy) and are at a level that puts her over I would say, Cinemassacre level - yes, she is that good. I expect that if she got funding like James Rolfe did for his AVGN movie, I expect we would see something fantastic, most likely set in the past. I'd pay to see it, and I'd do what I could to fund it. In my view, I've not seen this level of skill in... ages. Not from any youtuber I follow at any rate. Her "ask me anything" video showcases this art.

Speaking of that video, of course I was an instant fan. I liked all the videos and watched them all. I commented on I'm pretty sure all of them. I was an Emmy fan, and darn proud of it. When she answered my question I squealed like a little girl. When she hung up on my question I laughed... then I sighed, my little heart broken just a bit, knowing that my crush would never, ever like me at all not like like anyway. Also I'm pretty old. But then again Jordan Peterson is old, and she had a crush on him. Hummm if I can be as cool as JBP I can become her crush! Ah ha! A PLAN.

No I'm far to lazy to do that... so I made my bed and made a video about it and asked Emmy to use her clip, I cleverly edited it into my silly video and now its cannon. I've called her and she's hung up on me. And I swear EVERYTIME she does anything about this she uses the thumbnail of her on the phone and it hurts every, single, time. My lament, sadness, my tears fall, into the wind they blow.

Anyway, so I'm a fan. I emailed her a bunch of questions and OMG she answered them. She had a thing to send in video about censorship and I sent her SO MANY THINGS.

So, in her video (here) she wanted a fan page. I knew what I had to do.

But, remember, I'm lazy. So Facebook wanted my info from my past Facebook because I deleted Facebook so clearly I will remember who I was friends with to make a new Facebook???!!! UWU?!
What about Instagram? Oh I have one?! The bleep? I don't remember what that is, would have to make a new one, ugh that is SO HARD. Fine, is Myspace still a thing? Oh, it is! Wow it looks different. Hmmm signing up requires a lot of info. Ya know, for a one-off joke this is going to be a lot of work, and I know I'll just make it and never do anything with it... bleep me. Wait! I have a blog! Ah-ha! I'll do that!

So, I made a fan post on my blog about Emmy. How cute she is, how wonderful her voice is. How talented and smart she is, how awesome she is, how I pine for her with my little silly crush that I should know better to have and that will not be returned. Ah, Emmy, perhaps in some other lifetime or timeline... C`est La Vie anyway, so what was I saying? I guess I'll start from the beginning of this story.

I became aware of Emmy when Jordan Peterson tweeted a video she had done about him. His wife thought it was cute, and it was cute. Emmy is cute. All the things on her channel are cute, and I'm getting ahead of myself.

So, I watched her video, her skills at camara work, editing, voice-over, and all the things are at a level I will not reach (because I'm lazy) and are at a level that puts her over I would say, Cinemassacre level - yes, she is that good. I expect that if she got funding like James Rolfe did for his AVGN movie, I expect we would see something fantastic, most likely set in the past. I'd pay to see it, and I'd do what I could to fund it. In my view, I've not seen this level of skill in... ages. Not from any youtuber I follow at any rate. Her "ask me anything" video showcases this art.

... wait

I think... I've said this all.
Sorry. I think I'm repeating myself.
I really need to start over.

So uh... I first saw Jordan Emmy on Peterson Hucker twitter where I video follow. Then I like him because he is cute.

Wait no. That is very wrong. Let me try again. I just... oh man.
I need to restart from the start.
Okay.

So.

About 13 billion years ago there was this event known as the singularity and that expanded into the cosmos (that we call universe because we are dumb I guess, the universe is all the thing around the cosmos) and a whole bunch of things happened that then made stars and big stars and stardust and elements and then at some point planets and Earth and then things happened and life was a thing and then evolution happened - oh the Earth happened about 4.54 billion years ago, I don't think I mentioned that. Anyway, so all that stuff happened then a bunch of history of humans and at some point I was born and grew up and then the INTERNET was a thing and I got on it and learned about it and it was fun and I fell in love with someone but found out love was only true in fairy tails - disappointment everywhere. BUT THEN I SAW EMMY'S FACE AND NOW I'M A BLEEVVERRRRR and then I was like, I should make a FAN PAGE so I went to my blog and started to type about her and got crazy at some point I think I lost my mind due to Emmy I think or something I don't know maybe I didn't eat enough or something.

Then I hit an infinity loop where I was posting about posting and kept going into the past to explain my post and self and then this happened ahhhhhhh!!!!111112rwklerjnaliso; sze ERROR VERY.

*explodes*



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............And that's why Emmy Hucker is the best.

Of Naka

Thanks Naka.

I was young back then, and I had a whole world at my fingertips, the world of the internet. It was "new" to me, back then. We had chat. Video uploads were rare - seeing someones picture - VERY rare, people simply didn't have webcams, computers were still somewhat expensive (but the prices were going down) this was the era of AOL, and YAHOOOOOooooo. Tripod and geocities, and MYSPACE were the bling bling all that of webpages and such. And, there was mIRC.

Ah yes, mIRC the chat program that let you connect with people online, easy download, fast install, easy to use. Simple. Connect to a server, and join a room, and away you chat. It was fun. It was new, and I lost myself to it.

I had learned how email worked, and learned how mIRC worked. I was super into Sailor Moon, and my first search online (in fact my first thing I did online) was to use search.com to look for Sailor Moon, not knowing if anyone but me cared about it... well - people did! Lots of pages! Anyway, thanks to this love of anime I connected with people via email and learned about mIRC and wound up in a chatroom called #sailormoon - see on mIRC # is the prefix for the room's name. We didn't have hashtags yet. :P

Anyway, I was looking for love and romance back then, and I fell for someone named Princess Mercury, and even sort of dated her, or at least wrote to her. In the end, that was not to be, but there was Naka. She was always just there for me, and fun to talk to. We would play in her room #NakaFroce (there was a #Negaforce room and that is where the idea came from) we hung out in there and did fancy color words, and chatted about things and it was a whole world.

We just - clicked. But, she had told me, she was only into girls, and was "young" how young? I never really was told, but I was 16, so she couldn't be much younger and have the ability to type like she did right? So it was we had adventures and friends come and go. New programs with more fancy graphics came out. A new sort of chatroom that let you dress up your avatar and go to rooms with lots of people to chat about random things, and a side chess room that had a "lock" on it so you could talk one on one with someone. This of course, one presumes was used for cyber.

Oh we had cyber everything not just sex back then - you had cyber moms and dads and daughters and family, it was a different time and a whole universe it and of itself.

Naka knew how I felt about her, and would remind me she was only into girls. This is when I came up with.... a plan.

See I had established other nicknames, and other personality's that I would sign in as and "play" as - because I viewed mIRC as a playroom of sorts, we were talking about real things, but we also were doing silly things like Sailor Moon attacks at each other, so it was real, but it wasn't real. Anyone could claim anything, anyone could be anything. Asking for A/S/L was standard, getting a pic was rare but asked for to try to verify someone was who they said. 

Anyway, so I had a girl version of me online - but "she" had not been around for awhile, yet Naka knew of that persona, and from her view, that person was as real as I was. To some degree, she was, since she was me and I am real, but I am not a girl.

But, somewhere in my minds eye I saw that, maybe if I could get Naka to love her - then she could love me, somehow. It made no sense, but I wanted to be in love so much, to love and be loved, it was my quest.

So, it was that I as a girl "Diggy" logged in to interact with Naka. Naka wanted to play the more complex chat room rather then dull old mIRC - so Diggy followed, and new things way to fast - (because I knew them) but I made the excuse that me (the male me) had told her some things.. and that seemed to make sense. We talked of love, and of course well - we (cough) talked of the cyber sort of talk. 

Then, one day. Naka said "I have to tell you something, but it will ruin us..."

"No it will not!" I swore.

Naka: "No, it will... you will never forgive me, I have to tell you my secret before we meat and it will destroy this ..."

"Nothing you could say will change how I feel!" I vowed.

Naka: "This will... its why I've never shown my pic or anything..."

Uh oh. No, could it be? Was... no please no. Don't say THAT.

"Tell me." I said.

Naka "I'm a man."

Oh.

Bleep.

Bleep me.

But in that moment,  I didn't care, we would make it work, somehow. So I told Naka who I was, the whole truth and the illusion was ended, the reality was broken, "I can't be your lover" he said, his name was Steve.

And he was much, much older then I was. 

So he liked young girls. Oh.

Bleep.

So, well I fell in love with someone who wasn't. I fell for someone who didn't exist. I loved an illusion. I was hurt. I had lied, they had lied.

Yet still, I recall Naka telling me how she had got her name from this game where at the end credits it said simply "Thanks Naka." and that was a cool name to have.

Naka, in Japanese means "Within" or "Inside" or "Together"

Yume no naka futari de ita yo ne Hoshitachi ni mamorarete

... so, I learned to be careful online for you do not know who is who, or even maybe who you are. For that, I must say:

Thanks Naka.

On the subject of things that happened to me.

"I know you all hate me" I recall saying to people in my class way back when I was nine or ten, perhaps younger. I had two friends in that school. Each school thereafter I would only have one friend at most. It was online that I was able to make more friends. Yet, I found, that online is fleeting, people are not as much of a friend as you want to think they are, things that wouldn't end a relationship in "real life" (as if the net wasn't also part of real life) would and could and did end relationships online. Even dumb things, mostly the dumb things.

I've come from the "old school" net experience with chatroom and forums - before youtube, before twitter, before facebook and even before myspace was a "thing" oh I've been around I tell you.

What I can tell you is, people are jerks sometimes. And, sometimes they are wonderful. Words can hurt, words can help, words can be forgotten. I've had night long conversations that I forgot in full the next day - had to re-read whatever I wrote, and found that I couldn't really talk to that person, in fact, I had written most of the words, they had written little.

We let what we think the person is become a thing in our mind. (X) person is (Z) way, even if they are not. Our brain fills in the missing bits of that person.

I found romance a number of times online, and never had it pan out. Once it was a girl from the far off land of Texas who I would think of when I would play the song "Fields of gold" (done by Sting)
I would see those fields, see her run towards me, see us hug. See us love. Yet, it never came to be. She dropped me, it was over.

I've had people I really liked as a friend abandon me because we disagreed on something. I've had people betray me. In turn, I'm sure I've done this to others. I've hurt and been hurt.
Yet still, laughter could echo into the sky if we let it.

People can bring pain, or hope, or empty or full. We are strange creatures, always alone, always around others. On line, we find a new face around each corner, yet we are so far away, so distant. We can so easily forget we are a human, and they are human, and what someone is in fact. We can fail to separate our dream from reality.

Get angry online - see who sticks with you. Make a big error online, see who stands by your side. Those are the ones to call friend. Those are the ones to talk to.

So, ya want to be an advocate eh? Be sure you have some mega thick skin, because its rough out there, and its going to be. Your going to have to be together to make a difference in this world. If you break down, if you show weakness, your going to get smashed, so being an advocate for (X) might not be for you.

I've seen it as a theist and as a skeptic. I've seen insults. I've seen kind words. I've heard nonsense, I've heard facts. Its all there. Its all part of this thing. Its happening to me. Its happening to you.

Even as you read this, you are interacting with me, but you can not know me, not really, only a little, only slightly only a bit. Maybe you will want to know more, maybe.

We seek love of all kinds - friendship, romance, a unified family of our own making. We seek understanding and we want, so much, to make an impact upon this world. We want so badly to make it better, yet we have no idea how.

These are things that happened to me. These are things that happen to you.

So, well, big deal I didn't write anything you didn't know most likely, or didn't suspect, or maybe I did who knows? Did it matter? Did it make a difference? Can I make an impact? Can you? Can anyone?

As we all stumble around, trying to do this, debating over word choices, debating over everything from what we eat to how we put the TP on the roll to wipe our butts with (and how to wipe) - and we all want, I hope, to make this world a better place.

Perhaps, we do make this world a better place. Who knows. So, do you want to quit twitter or facebook or youtube? You might. You might need to for yourself - as there are ways and ways to make an impact outside of the net. I've got a message to send, are you there?

Is anyone out there? Am I alone in this? No. You are not alone.
But it can feel like that. I know.
Because this is one of the things that happened to me.
What happened to you?

I want to know. I want to share.
Lets make it better, if we can agree, we can find some way to compromise.
Hope for humanity +1 if I did my job with my humble words.
If not, well - I tried at least.

Perhaps we all must try our best. Peace works, use it. Love wins over hate. I think we must try to be the sort of human we hope others to be. Yet, can we? I do not know. I only know, this is a few things that happened to me.

If Judaism was like Islam.

Around 14 million Jewish people are in the world today. Of that, its unclear how many practice the religion.
The Muslim faith has about 1.8 billion followers maybe more.

One billion is BIG. (Every new term greater than million is one thousand times as large as the previous term. Thus, billion means a thousand millions (10⁹) 14 million  =  0.014 billion)

About 70% of that 1.8 billion want Sharia law. This is the law set that is, well - not very good for anyone. Its got lots of bad things for non-believers of the faith and pretty harsh penalties for doing (X)(Y) & (Z) you name it, its most likely not allowed.

Unlike the Torra that has 613 commandments nicely explained, Sharia law is more muddled and requires good old "interpation" so people do not really agree on what horrable terrable things to do if that law is in place. 

But, we know for the most part the penality for doing anything wrong of the 613 commandments depends, mostly its stoning but it can also be being burned to death or killed by a sword. 

So if 70% of a million Jewish people were practicing this barbaric set of laws &/or WANTED to do so, would people be against it? Would we see people saying that we should not be so Jewophobia for saying bad things about the religion?

What would a world look like if we swapped around these things just a bit?
Now, of course, no Jewish person does practice the punishment parts of the Torah anymore because there is no more Temple. Presumably, if the temple was rebuilt, I guess they would follow or want to follow them all? No idea. No one's done a poll that I know of on this.

Still - I can't help but wonder if people who say "Islamophobia" would be saying "Jewophobia". Seems to me that these religious practices that subscribe death and killing and maiming as """"""justice"""""" should have been discarded ages ago. What do you think?

God.

God.
What is a God?
What things must something have to be called a God?
Must the thing in question have power to make a universe?
Must it have all knowledge?
Must it always exist?
Why?
Let me talk about a few God examples.

Haruhi Suzumiya. (spoilers for anime/manga)

The God that isn't aware that it is, in fact, God.

Its highly possible in the world of Haruhi that she is God. That she has made the reality that is all around her, and she has made it, perhaps - last Thursday She wants the world to not be normal, but if the world is not normal, then she will be aware that she is in fact God, and thus not be happy. If God is unhappy - well then the world as we know it, most likely will end. This is the "Melancholy". The anime asks the question - what does God want? I think the answer is given when Kyon kisses her, God wants (or needs) love.

This kiss resets everything to normal again. Although its not normal for aliens, time travlers and espers do exist in reality, but Haruhi must never know this. The careful balance of keeping her happy and unaware, is put on Kyon who must love her enough to put up with her, and the insanity that she is causing him.

In this world, God is not aware that it is in fact God. 

How would we know if we were in a world like this?

You might object by saying that there are no aliens, time travelers or espers - but then again you might not be the main protagonist. Your not Kyon, and thus are also unaware of what is the true nature of reality. Perhaps God got board, and the reality we have here is the result. Then God erased its memory that it was God.

How would you possibility hope to know if that wasn't the case?

~~~

Q

God is a trickster.

"Oh, you'd like me to connect the dots for you, lead you from A to B to C, so that your puny mind could comprehend? How boring."

Q from Star Trek The Next Generation was shown to do things that no human could do, that no technology could do. Q could very well be a God - or THE God. If Q did have the powers "he" claims to have, then all bets are off. If Q said it was a God, and did all sorts of things that defy understanding, how could you say it wasn't God?

Q is of course, a trickster, or at the very least a tester. Or well, insane. We get told by Q and others but who knows - if Q really is at a level beyond us, then it could simply lie about its own past and its own abilities. There is simply no way to know. If this is God, then we are mere playthings. Perhaps we are. How could we hope to know?

~~~

Humanity

"We are you, and you are us! ... Stop playing games!"

Humans are God. In that, we made God in our image, because we are pattern seeking creatures. Because we lack all knowledge. Because the mundane world is fighting or dull. Because others said there was a God. Because we were taught this. Because people believe it. 

God is you. You are God. We are God. God is nothing more then our own brain. When you pray, you are talking to you. When you worship, you are worshiping yourself. 

Religion takes you on this ride of promises that it can't prove, and promises answers it can't provide. God fills a roll of not wanting to be alone. Not wanting all this to not "matter". God is the answer when you have no answer. Here there be dragons, here there be Gods.

Goblins, Ogres, Dragons do not exist, and that really doesn't upset anyone. Yet when you say G.O.D. does not exist, suddenly you have a debate on your hands.

If we are God, then all God ideas are made from us, and by us. This would explain why God never does anything that nature can not do. This would explain why random things bad and good can happen. This wouldn't explain the mystery's we have, but nether does invoking God - for perhaps we should "save a step" and learn to love the mystery. To say "We do not know now.... but we one day might." To not insert God into the gaps. 

Yet, people think there really is a God, that it is not humanity. That it is out there, unproven, untestable, non-observed, abstract and strange. That you must work to "find" God - when perhaps, God is right there, in you and is you. If true, we must be the best possible God we could be. I suspect we will do better then the made up Gods... but we might do just as bad, or worse. 

~~~




Or maybe its a lobster.

Twitter polls: useless.

I've seen someone doing twitter polls having someone vs someone else in some sort of strange popularity contest - who is "winning" well, whoever has more fans will "win" that sort of poll.

I've seen polls asking silly things and semi-serous things.

However, twitter polls are not going to yield you results that are worth anything.

The issues are numerous.

You have a limited sample size.

Whatever your current following on twitter is, it is limited in scope the demographics of who you are polling is narrow due to this. Any data collected will be very biased.

You can't make the poll a good one.

A yes/no/other poll is simply not a very good poll. Proper polls conceal what it is that they are polling for, so that you as the poll taker do not know what the poll is about, and, thus are more likely to be honest in the answers. Although there is always a margin for error (something that twitter polls could never account for) you are looking to get answers from the people who agree to take the poll, and also guard against people being non-honest actors. This is why you see polls have similar questions latter on, worded in other ways to see if the answer you gave last time is consistent with the answer you give this time. Its hard to remember a lie, easy to remember the truth. This is also why investigation people ask the same question more then once. This can't happen with a twitter poll.

You can't set any controls in place.

Blind, or double blind methods as well as other controls can not be put into place in twitter polls.

Your question might be formatted badly.

Unless you are using formalized logic to make your question (and even then) you run the risk that your question is a leading one, with a desired result in mind. Proper questions are very hard to make in a decent poll.

"So? Its only twitter."
Yes, but people are getting fired for things they put on twitter, so people do seem to take what is said here seriously, for good or for ill. Thus, polls should be subject to the sort of critical analysis that we would subject public polling. In this case, due to how it functions, I submit we should simply not use twitter to poll anything, as nothing those polls yield will tell us anything much... other then who is popular in a popularity contest, and honestly, I simply do not care about such data. I suppose if you do, then well - have at it, but remember due to the above you can never know for sure who is in fact more popular because you can not block bad-faith actors from voting in strange ways.

Righteous Anger

So I was in a hangout here: Rage
Some background, I've spoken to the person that some are calling "Jil" (as his youtuber name is jesus is lord) and I've heard him claim before that he gladly ripped out pages from text books on evolution to teach it to kids. This is either a lie, or the truth. If a lie, he is a horrible person for lying, if the truth he is a monster for teaching kids a lie and for being okay with that.

Yes, we should attack the argument, not the man. Yet my anger was full boil he had to be put in his place, did I do this? I'm not sure. In the past if and when I've lost my cool live I've regretted doing so. This time, I feel justified at being so angry at this waste of human flesh. I draw the line at teaching nonsense to kids and being smug about doing so.

But lets go over what I revealed to be his "arguments".

He wanted to debate the flood mentioned in the bible. His proof that event occurred is that other stories also talk about a flood. Stories that happened before the flood are proof that the flood happened, so the Epic of Gilgamesh you see tells of this tale because the bible doesn't tell you a location or time, so all stories about any floods before or after (since we do not know the event time) will be pointing at the bible story (and other accounts might be corrupted or something) also everyone of every nation just had it put "in there heart" that this event happened, thus explaining all the stories about floods. So that is the "proof" that the bible flood happened.

This is the nonsense we must put up with. Now, what about the age of the earth/universe - he never said what he thought that was, but he is really, really against evolution because - of course, he asserts there isn't evidence. Perhaps if he had read the books he ripped out the pages from he would know what the evidence was. Also, also he would not debate this, because he doesn't have the proof that it is true. What!? Yep. He said that. I got him to basically admit that nothing would change his mind, even though he has said that if he had evidence that would change his mind (it will not).

I cornered him with the fact that miracle.are never identifiable as such - the appeal to ignorance fallacy is all you got with those. You see pigs fly (his analogy not mine) that must be a miracle. How do you know? Because everything we know about pigs says they should not fly. So, I'll go down that rabbit hole awhile - say you have found a flying pig and used all science and still do not know how it flies - is it a miracle- yes it is. What if tomorrow its found out how the pig flew showing it to be mundane? Well then... yeah. The point is, the same fallacy of thinking lighting is a miracle is the same fallacy of thinking a flying pig is a miracle: appeal to ignorance. Yet then he equivocates to there being "other types" of miracles - and that yes, lighting is still one of those types of miracles.

Ugh. He also constantly shifted the burden of proof and gave zero anything for any of his claims. Typical.

My anger, however, came from his smugness regarding what he did to those kids. It made my blood "boil" so to speak. I concluded he was dead to me and will not again talk to this person. The argument didn't even exist to attack in this case. All we have is a human that is okay with teaching nonsense he knows nothing about to kids. Oh sure, I would debate him if someone set it up, but I'd require him to have a syllogism and require the debate to be about evolution - something he will not debate "atheists" about (what about a Christian who agreed with evolution, hmmm? Oh those are fake Christians I bet) with that wall in place, we would never debate.

I've said plenty of times on my channel to attack the argument, not the person. The fact that this guy is an utter waste of flesh who lies to kids and lies to us is not relevant to his argument... but he doesn't have an argument. So... well... there is just a big nothing here.

I've had far better talks and debates with theists. This is an example of someone who we must leave behind as we move forward in progress.

Perhaps others will have fun with him. I'm moving on.